Oh, the things i think of......(pt. 1)

wow.........its been a while since i last posted.......kinda sad, really. any way, for this post, im  actually going to try to get my head straight. i know thats not always possible, but im seriously doubtful that i will not be able to sort out some of this mess. any way, i truely do want to sort out what im thinking. its just not that easy for me. im alway drifting off, and today seems to be a big day drifter for me. i am seriously considering not going to my class tonight simply because im just too out of it. i think its my pain killers that are doing the trick........i don't know, maybe im just getting too tired.......who knows..........